I’ve never been one to turn papers in late. Ever. It’s simply not done in my world. But recently, God has been rocking my world in oh-so-many ways and so the “norm” hasn’t always been how it’s gone. I find myself doing things at the last minute instead of weeks before. I scramble to the last moment to prepare my presentation, meet that deadline, send that card. My heart and mind are on hyperdrive, racing to keep up….
So, too, holds true for Five Minute Fridays. I’ve wanted to participate in this “adventure,” inspired by The Gypsy Mama, for months. But somehow I never have. I don’t know what it is about Fridays, but I just never seem to pull it together enough get here. This Friday was no different.
But what was different was the clear ringing in my mind telling me that I am meant to participate this week, that I need to let God speak through this Friday’s word as He imprints words upon my heart here.
Here’s how it works – Gypsy Mama supplies a word for that Friday and you sit down and write for 5 minutes. That’s it. The hard part is that you write without any backspacing (ugh!), any editing (no?!), or any over-thinking (eek!). You just let the words flow for five minutes – then you stop and post.
If you haven’t figured it out by now, I am a rule follower extraordinaire. I’ve read a lot of these posts from various blogs and, quite honestly, many of them seem a little too polished to me to have been written in five minutes with no post-editing. But then again, who knows what can happen when we sit back and let God just talk through us? So here I go, in what solemnly vow is a completely rough, unedited 5 minutes worth of writing on this week’s word: Vivid.
Sometimes God’s voice is just a faint whispering in my heart, no louder than the sound of an eyelash falling to the floor. Other times His voice echos loudly through the caverns of my soul, unmistakable and relentless, filtering into every second, every moment.
That’s how it’s been for me lately. The difference is that I didn’t ever make a conscious choice to ask God to speak so clearly. I know that seems silly and even a bit stubborn, but it is true.
It’s not that I don’t want to hear from God. Don’t get me wrong. I do.
It’s just that in the past when His voice has been the loudest has been when I have desperately cried out for it, grasping for it with every breath I had.
But right now I’ve been running from one moment to the next, often the days blurring by in a nonstop pattern of: Bed, shower, car, desk, car, bath, bed. An entire week went by recently where I didn’t even set foot in my living room!
So I haven’t exactly been practicing the “stillness” in God that I might like to. As a matter of fact, my quality, intentional time with God has been (shamefully) contained to my 25-30 minute drive to and from work each day. It’s what I had.
That’s why it’s amazing to me that in all of that, God has chosen to speak so vivdly, so clearly, so faithfully.
And do you know what? Some of the words He’s spoken to me lately? They’re precisely what I need. No surprise, I know.
You don’t have to ask for God to speak in order for Him to comply … you just have to listen. And when you do, you will know recognize without a single doubt the amazing, vivid voice of the Heavenly Father meeting you exactly where you are.
What about you – are you listening for His voice in your life today?